November 2, 2009
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Beating Myself Up
The weekend was good. I have pictures of Philly to share once I get them uploaded. Philadelphia was really wonderful. I didn’t realize how close it was to us. I would like to go back again and explore the city a little bit more.
I only have a few more weeks of school left and I am eagerly awaiting the semester to end. Last night, I was thrown into a little bit of an uproar when I found out about a group assignment in Statistics that is due Tuesday (yes, as in tomorrow). It’s not a big deal in the scheme of things. I’ll get it done tonight when I get home and it will be fine. I was just kind of beating myself up because I hate not being prepared. The Architect says I’m being too hard on myself but I hate feeling like I’m behind. Although I suppose I can’t beat myself up too much; neither of the other two members in my group knew about the assignment either. Sigh… On top of that, the group has been really slow to get their parts of a paper that we have to turn in tomorrow finished. It’s frustrating.
My classes end on Dec. 6th so I only really have to make it through another month and then I’ll have two months off before the spring semester begins. I’m looking at that light at the end of the tunnel with eager anticipation and trying to focus on getting to the end of the semester.
In other news, I realized that I really need to get cracking on my Christmas shopping. I haven’t done any of it!!! Eek!
How do you focus when you’re feeling down?
Comments (19)
how does everybody not know about that group assignment? Did the professor forget to remind you all that you had one?
my classes end around there too. maybe the professor is evil.
Also, I pray. I ask God to give me peace and wisdom that can only come from Him. He’s the lifter of my head.
You came to Philly w/o telling me? No fair!!! lol
I seldom feel down…
I have enough trouble focusing when I feel good.
You survived the weekend with the Phillies playing? Im impressed! I didnt want to leave the house with all of the crazies out! Glad you enjoyed it!
Just think of it as one less assignment you will have to do after tonight! You are that much closer to the end of the class!
When I am feeling down, I get out and go for a long ride, or take a long walk. I am usually refreshed enough when I return, and can start focusing on things.
I am sure you will get your project finished on time and get excellent grades too.
Oh no Christmas shopping! It’s Christmas already? Somehow I am not in the mood.
i like to beat myself up too
Philadelphia is a wonderful city. Tawn and I almost moved there in ’03 when my company was trying to relocate all its national managers to headquarters. Eventually, they realized how expensive that would be and rethought the plan. Not before we got a company-paid weekend trip to the city to check it out, though!
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I focused on my job ( teacher then inspector/manager ) but now I wonder if it was not too much . It was like a passion.
I would like seeing some pictures of Philadelphia.
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@Roadlesstaken - Sigh, it was buried in our weekly assignments so I didn’t see it. Apparently neither did my team. I stopped feeling so bad when it seemed like all of the groups in the class were kind of behind schedule. Oh well!
@AlterEgo909 - Sadly we were only there for about 3 or 4 hours. I do have plans to go back in the future. Shall we plan a Philly/DC meet then?
@Zeal4living - That is very lucky. On the whole, I’m a generally happy person but I can get overwhelmed.
@der_lila_Stern - I think we must have been in the wrong part of the city. We didn’t see any baseball fans. I think we were quite far from the stadium. We were hanging around Independence Hall.
@ZSA_MD - I got it turned in and everything is fine. I can be very hard on myself when it comes to school work. Oh, btw, I got too excited about the cook book and gave it to Phil last night because we happened to be talking about some chick peas in masala sauce that his Indian co-worker brought for a pot luck that they had yesterday. Phil loved the cook book!
@icepearlz - I really am not either but I know that I will be less in the mood once the malls start getting really crowded.
@christao408 - I love how much history the city has!
@fauquet - I will try to put up pictures tonight.
@TheCheshireGrins - Indeed! I’m down for a meet.
That is such a tough question. It’s sort of a “suck it up” mentality, aka “do it anyway” and it’s more of a sense of duty.
When my family moved to N.VA from CA when I was in 8th grade, I suffered from adolescent depression. We didn’t know I did. I had no idea until I got my Masters in Education and did a unit in the adolescent development class on the topic. It was very eye-opening for me. One reason I slipped under the radar is that I kept my grades up. I’m guessint that it’s my “work therapy” mentality, usually a male trait. In that mindset, when things suck you throw yourself into your work as a means of escape.
It’s hard when you’re talking about mental activity: studying. How do you stop your mind from wandering to the stuf that’s bringing you down? But it is possible. It uses your brain muscle similarly to when you meditate. In the book of Ephesians in the Bible, it’s called “taking every thought captive.” It’s a great skill to get you through life’s difficulties. I learned that one when I went through my first breakup when I was 20. It took a long time to get the skill down and not obsess over the hurt. I had to re-learn it when I found out that my best guy friend’s wife was sleeping with my boyfriend. I thought she was my friend. It was rough, but my spiritual director had me say a Hail Mary every time my mind went to the evil hag…eventually, I got it down and was freed from the mental merry-go-round. It’s possible to take a similar mental activity to study while life is getting you down.
You are heading toward your finish line! Woot-woot!
The hard thing is to not beat yourself up… I have a bad habit of doing that to myself as well… especially this year.
Gahhhhhhhhh, you were in Philly??
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