November 18, 2010
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Don’t Mind Me…
… I’m just thinking out loud.
You know, I often wonder about what would happened if you made a small change. How big of change would you need to change the entire course of your life? Is it a left turn versus a right turn? Different places? Different turns? Where is that line where everything changes? Do you know that now? I can’t help but wondering…
I’ve been hit in a weird way this week. It could have been 10 years, almost half a short lifetime. Such an immense change. I don’t know what’s done it. The onset of winter? Recent shakeups? November (it was a good month once, remember)? Slow or fast progression of life in general? Life is good right now; I don’t know why I’m getting pulled back this way.
I’m in the middle of listening to the White Album. It fits the mood just right now. Did you know that you’re supposed to listen to the songs in an album in order? Itunes may have ruined that for most of us.
I’m feeling adrift and not nailed down. Maybe that’s what’s pushing me back to… well you know where I’m at right now.
Comments (6)
Beautifully said. Kind of in the same place as you, girly.
I think it’s normal to feel like this. Immerse yourself in this feeling and be one with it, and then move on to the next phase, which is reveling in the way life is, I guess. The good things.
I hope your next week is full of busyness and happiness. much love.
Looking back on life, there are times when a simple decision changed life’s path. Life changed in a day, it seems. Less so as I’ve aged, I think. Life becomes a survival game. You’ve had so many changes this year, graduation, marriage, move, that you’ve spent the last couple of years looking ahead to the next milestone. You may feel somewhat adrift now that you’ve reached all these milestones, but now have none apparent in the future. You are definitely a goal-oriented person, and, without one, may be just feeling a little lost. Don’t worry, the next goal will present itself soon. This is just your time to stop and smell the roses, perhaps, or look back and assess all you’ve achieved!
I don’t know how many times I find myself thinking about decisions that I have made in the past. I just know that I shouldn’t always dwell on what I did and what I could have done.
Did you ever watch the movie “Sliding Doors”? That same concept of how a small change could set yout life on an entirely different course. Your life and where you are today is a reflection of a thousand small changes, the effects of which were largely unpredictable.
I know what you mean. Sometimes I wonder too what if? But I have no regrets.